he was a fair man that I didn't know but I felt in love with. I was not as white as him and therefore I believed that there was a scale of skin color value. Somebody could be better ir worse than me because of their skin color.
Although all my life I tried to fight against the idea, the society reforces it and felt accepted by others because of this reason.
Today I want to forget this idea and I couldn't. I have never wanted to whiten myself and don't want to.